Sunday, November 30, 2008

seizures

last night, erica suffered two seizures. after each one, she was non responsive... slowly she began to respond to the doctors poking and jabbing... but she couldn't identify anyone. She sort of looks right past you, never at you. She seems soothed by Josh's voice--this comes in handy now as she seems so infantile in her movements of eye rubbing and scratching and attempts to remove tubes... she doesn't speak but has mumbled once or twice. although we talk to her and try to communicate, we are quite certain that she is not her right now.

the tears don't seem to stop flowing, even as i type this... we are at a loss. the largest loss since this all began because we dont have her strength to guide us now. i can't and will never describe what it was to see my sister endure a seizure... two seizures... i don't wish that on anyone.

i don't know what will happen today but the plan thus far is to keep her comfortable and calm until we know the results of the MRI and go from there. The head CT post-seizure #1 didn't show any bleeds and we are told that she looks similar to pre-seizure.

we will take today as it comes. please please pray....

27 comments:

Jessie said...

Sending so much peace, all the peace I can possibly muster.

Jaci, I am thinking of you and your family. Give Erica a kiss on the head from all of us in Boston.

With love.

Anonymous said...

May our prayers comfort Erica and all of you. Thought we do not know your personally, we hold you close and send you our strength.

Saily

Avital and said...

I woke up this morning and made a B-line for the computer, to this blog. I don't know why. Something told me that Erica needs us more than ever right now. Please keep her comfortable...and tell her I love her and miss her.
-Avi

Anonymous said...

Prayers are always with you, but never more than now. Erica may not be able to guide you with voice and action, but believe me, she is guiding you all nonetheless.

Peace, Jaci - I am with you all in spirit.

Jen

P. said...

Jaci ~ Thank you so much for taking time away from Erica to keep us updated. Praying for comfort, strength and peace for you all. I know it is so hard but the greatest gift is that she has her family and friends surrounding her with their love. Prayers and more prayers are being said for you all!

Addie said...

Much love to you all out there, I'm sending prayers your way.

Love, Addie

Anonymous said...

Jaci, thank you very much for continuing to update the blog. You are such a brave person.

Be strong, sweetie. We are all thinking and praying of you and Erica and the rest of your family.

Much love,

Giselle and Raquel

Kent said...

You are all in my and Joyce's thoughts and prayers.

Colombia said...

All I am doing is praying!! Thank you for the updates.

Matt said...

We are praying for peace for all of you

Claire and Bonnie said...

Oh Jaci, our hearts, thoughts and love go out to you, Erica and your family and friends, we continue to pray for you all xx

Anonymous said...

Another prayer for you lovingly from Matt

Samina said...

I am thinking of you all constantly. Repeating the prayer of healing to Lord Shiva. I love you all so much. Please feel it.

Hari Om,
samina

Anonymous said...

Jaci be strong: like Jen said, Erica's spirit has never left you, it never will.

You've been so brave all along, you all can do it.

You have each other and all of us far away but praying for you. Thanks for sharing your painful road with us

Sara

Anonymous said...

I cannot imagine how difficult this must be for all of you right now - know my thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

Lauren

Anonymous said...

Praying hard. Praying much. Thinking of you all.....but, especially Erica. God will be with you and will keep you. Lean on Him. He cares for Erica and all of you more than you can know....but DO know that He does!! God bless you and keep you all at this time. A dedicated prayer partner.

Anonymous said...

unfortunately i can imagine how awful this is. and as i know i am praying ever so much harder. my dear, dear jaci...my love and prayers go do you all...
robbinbobbin

Debbie & Tracy said...

We just wanted to send you all of our strength and prayers. I cannot imagine how difficult this must be and although you don't feel you have Erica's strength to guide you through, her spirit is still there. She will always be with all of us who she knew and loved and those of us who loved her. We still hold out hope for a miracle, and pray for it every day.....please let us know if there is anything at all we can do.

Tracy & Debbie

Anonymous said...

Erica has taught you to be strong for times like this. I am praying for all of you in this time of need.

Abby Wood said...

Jaci, I echo everything everyone else here said, including the fact that you are strong. You and Erica are from the same mold, and it doesn't get much stronger than that!

As I told Josh, I'm just a phone call away if I can help take care of the little things (food, errands, etc.). Until then, sending prayers for all of you, for peace, for comfort.

jeremy said...

LOVE

Anonymous said...

Dear Jaci,
I have been following this blog from afar, always listening to stories about Erica through Fletcher. You have all been so amazing thus far and so amazingly strong - I cannot find the words to say how inspiring you have been; Erica, you, all of you. You are all in my thoughts and I wish you all the strength you can muster to be there for Erica, and for each other.
With much love,
Connie

Anonymous said...

Jaci,
All my love, all my prayers, from the bottom of my heart, goes to Erica and your family. I keep on praying, praying, praying for her.
Sophie

Georg, Stephanie & Liam said...

We are dedicated to you and your family. Our arms are open wide as we send out love, and prayers to you today.

WuCrew

Anonymous said...

Erica, you are encircled in a constellation of pure spirits and hearts, loving you.

Anonymous said...

Take care, dearest Erica. I am praying for you!

ChristinaPrell said...

Jaci,
I will continue to pray for peace. You will be in my constant thoughts and prayers.

All my Love,
Christina Prell