Monday, April 24, 2006

April 24, 2006

This is a tough blog to write. It's been a difficult day for Erica and by default, it makes it a little harder for me... This morning was our scheduled appointment at the hospital for week 2. She only received one chemotherapy shot today and again takes the rest at home during the week. After her appointment, we came home to recooperate, rest, and watch some ALIAS. (we're totally addicted!) Since Jamie offered to cook us a fabulous feast for dinner, we all took a trip to Whole Foods for some groceries. On our way to checkout, Erica's legs buckled and she couldn't stand. I held her up while Jamie grabbed a chair. I ran out to bring the car to the front of the store, only to see THREE people carrying my unconscious sister to my car. Needless to say, I was panicking at this time---she had fainted. One of the gentlemen carrying her just happened to be a doctor at the Dana Farber Cancer Institute and knows Erica's Attending Physician! He advised us to head directly to the ER at Brigham and Women's Hospital and he called ahead to let our doc know we were coming. Upon arriving, I reached via telephone our doctor's PA who calmed me down, gave me background that this is common for patients coming off the steroids she took the past week, and gave us the green light to take her home to rest.
So now, we are sitting on the couch, completing a crossword puzzle, and realizing that things are coming at us that we hadn't ever thought of... the real fear is the unknown. It was shocking and scary... My fear is that just moments before I had left her to pick up something in another aisle because she told me she could stand---what if I wasn't there? What would I have done without Jamie being here?? ... physically and emotionally, we are hitting some lows. But we are determined and looking forward to a better week ahead. It helps to realize that we are conquering each obstacle and makes us a little bit stronger.


joyce said...

Dear Erica,

I'm relieved to hear that you are fine and resting after the trip to Whole Foods. Again, thank you for sharing your daily happenings with us, both the ups and downs, as most of us cannot imagine the challenges, fears, and struggles you face each day. But I know you have the courage and strength to beat this...and although your bumps and hills along the way may be big, we are there with you, all the way.

As always, it was great spending time with you last week...and you should know that Kent and I LET you and Jaci beat us at just wait till next time. And next time...yes, if you let me in your kitchen again, I'd like to prepare another dinner and dessert for you. :)

Hope you're resting well...

Erik said...

Erica and Jaci,

I agree with Joyce above, thank you for sharing all of your ups and downs with us--that was a scary Whole Foods story, but it's good to know that you are home again and watching Alias, and that there was a doctor at the Whole Foods who knew your doctor (it sounds like your neighborhood is just swarming with doctors--which is awesome!), and Jaci, it's so great that you and Erica have each other, and the strength that both of you show (in the face of everything) is a big, promising thing that I know will help you get through this.

Sending you love from California,
Erik (Nithipalan)

shannon said...

Hi girls,

I am, as always, so sorry to hear of the trials and difficulties that you guys go through every day. I am also relieved that you are resting and doing better, Erica. :) And Jaci, you are amazing! I hope you can stop worrying or being afraid that you aren't doing enough, or aren't doing the right thing at the right time. I'm sure that you are doing more than your sister could ever have hoped for and, more importantly, all that she could need. You know, I've passed out at the grocery store before... and I was by myself! You were there to at least take care of her and get her out of there. So, as one who has had to deal with that situation solo, I can assure you that Erica is probably stoked that you were no more than 5 seconds away!
I think of you girls often and am always grateful for the updates. I know what a rollercoaster all your days must be! Thank you for taking the time to keep everyone updated.
With warm wishes for a happier (and less stressful) tomorrow,
Shannon Jerger

slucas said...

Stay strong, sisters. Alias Season 3 is waiting for you... just say the word...

Greg Genco said...

Erica and Jaci,
wow, what a hard day. i dont know what to say except im glad you made it through ok. rest up and take care.
your strength in the face of all this continues to be an inspiration.
with love,
ps whats up with alias? never heard of it

artineh said...

Dear Erica,
What happened to the motorized wheelchair you loved so much? For some reason I thought you were traveling around town in style all the way? Well I'm glad you're OK and that it wasn't worse.

Jaci and Jamie, good work getting her a chair and then the car ride home. You guys rock!

Hope this doesn't happen again.

hey did you get the tea and coffee? which did you like?

thinking of you and sending you more love from California.


Leslie Edwards said...

My heart stopped when I read your blog tonight, but I am glad that you are back home. I wish I was still there with you, but I know you are in great hands with Jaci and Jamie. I miss you girls (and the way I didn't get charged twice for season four, so just keep the duplicate copy for now and I'll let you know if I get a second charge). I LOVE YOU! Looks like you have a lot of love coming to you from here is some more! Take care sweetie and thank you Jaci for your being Erica's keeper, she is so lucky to have you by her side.

Dave said...

I know the "what if's" are natural and go hand in glove with everything that must be gonig on. But if you can, try to ignore the "what if's" and focus on the "thanks goodnesses" (is that a word?)

Thank goodness you're all home safe, thank goodness the doctor was there who knew Erica's Attending.

I know this is a tough time, I know how hard it can be, but try to focus on anything positive you can.

And remember, there's a whole lot of people praying and thinking good thoughts for all of you!

Lindsay said...

you might not remember me, considering i up and left w/out too many words our sophomore year at oxy, but i just want to let you know i've been thinking of you over the last 7 (!) years, and especially last 7 days since Uma told me about the ALL. i was really saddened to hear about it, but immediately thought you are one of the strongest, smartest, and most hopeful people i've ever known....and as a nurse in new york city, working w/many cancer patients, i can tell you those qualities go more than a long, long way. just reading your blogs, i can tell you're going to beat this. keep that smile i'll never forget. i'm sure you have a lot of great nurses and doctors to go to, but if you ever have any questions (you may think too silly to ask them?), please write or call (i'm in nyc).

ps-if ever i was sick, i would hope for a sister as wonderful as yours sounds by my side.


communicatrix said...

Courage, dear ones!

And, as Erik says, lots of Alias!

Thank you for your grace. I have a feeling there are many, many people out there you don't even know yet who are in your corner.

Take good care of yourself. More Alias! And cookies!

Erik said...

Erica, I just saw THIS and it made me smile (it's an advertisement for channel four in England, but it's basically just a lot of TV actors sharing their favorite curse words). I thought it might make you smile too.


TheDarkerUma said...

missing you.

love ums

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